.They call it LOVE.

Friday, July 30, 2004

~ My day... ~ 11:09:00 pm

Guess what?? I was being a naughty girl today... Haha... Actually all I did was to miss my tutorials which started at 8... Well, nothing uncommon to skip lessons when you're in poly... But it's just against my rules to skip lessons unneccessarily... Oh well... And the reason why I missed my tutorial was bcuz I OVERSLEPT!! Yes I know... A very lame excuse... Hehe... I just totally forgot to set my alarm before I went to sleep last nite... Maybe cuz I was too sleepy or I was just too excited over something (*winks*)... Hehe... Well, got up at 7.48 and my first thought was 'What day is it today? It's not Saturday right?'... In which I finally realised that I had overslept and was already late for class...Immediately sms-ed Fione to inform her that I'm not coming for the first tutorial and that I was not 'feeling well'... Was feeling bad to make her lie for me... Sorry Fione!! I know I owe you one... Hehe...Thought that I could make it for the 9 o'clock tutorial... But unfortunately, I had a mild diarrhoea which caused me to visit the loo 3 times... Ended up missing the second tutorial too... *Sigh*... Now I only have 97% attendance in the system... But too bad, I was just plain lazy to do make up lessons (Okay I admit this is my own fault...) Haha...

Reached school at 10... Had lessons till 2... Followed my mum and sis to JB after school... Met up with them at Woodlands Interchange... Thought I was the one who was going to be late but ended up, they were the ones who were late... Was feeling SUPER tired and my eyes was like closing and closing at the Avon shop... Met up with a lot of people in JB... Surprisingly, they are all SINGAPOREANS!!! Heh... They say Singapore is a tiny country but I guess it's a really small world... *I'm beginning to talk crap*... Went to a shop in Kota Raya and my sis accidentally dropped the shelf when in fact, the shelf was already spoilt...And end up, my poor sis got the blame... And the shop owner gave us a weird kind of look, more of the displeasure sort... And I don't understand why my mum still bought the shirt from there when he was already not happy with us... Terrible service they have... Don't they know that the customer is always right... *Sheesh*... Headed home after that cuz I was already complaining that I was tired... And oh yeah, I bought this HUGE lollipop with I think, is going to last me for 3 days... Wonder why Singapore don't sell it... *Hmm*...

Finally, no more tests to struggle with at this moment in time... Had my advanced theory on Monday, clinical theory test on Wednesday and practical theory test just yesterday... Well, hopefully I can pass for my advanced theory... Have to wait for 2 weeks for the results... As for my practical test yesterday, I really count myself lucky cuz there was some points which could have made me failed straight away... For example, I did not rub my elbow for the hand scrubbing, went to flick the hand towel and flipped the gloves... At the end, the lecturer, Ms Joan Lee, could still asked me whether she should pass or fail me... Just with instincts, I said I wanted a 'fail'... But in the end, she 'closed one eye' and passed me... My friend told me maybe reverse psycho works... Haha... Guess that I was one of the lucky ones...

Okay... Shall end here now... Feeling very sleepy... Dreamland, here I come!! Haha...

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!! ~ 10:54:00 pm

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KAKAK...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...
*muacks*

Well, someone whom I adore and love very much turns 28 today... That's right! Today is my dearest sister's birthday...

My special wishes for my sis:
HAPPY 28TH BIRTHDAY!! So sorry that your age is no longer a secret... Hehe... Best wishes for you on your special day and may Allah bless you in everything that you do... I know that I've been a very irritating sister to you by playing the lovey-dovey and 'jiwang' songs over and over again... Haha... But without you around, I wouldn't be around either... Thanks for being such a great elder sister to me... Thank you for being there for me when I'm down (well, you know what...) and all the advices that you've given... Sorry if I've made you angry time and time again (isn't that what sisters are for... haha!)... But deep down in my heart, you're the one and only sister that I have and I LOVE YOU!!! Once again, Happy Birthday...

The Both of Us...

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

~ My strange feeling... ~ 10:26:00 pm

I can't explain why but suddenly, I'm having this strange feeling... Something that I have not felt for quite some time (well, about a period of 2 months... not so long lah)... I know I'm supposed to be studying for my theory test tomorrow but I just can't help it... Listening to the love songs are making it worse... Sigh...

Yes, I'm yearning for my 'Loved One'...
Suddenly, I'm missing you so much that I'm looking forward to seeing you again... But I'm gonna wait cuz I believe that absence makes the heart grows fonder and that is going to make me love you more and more...

Oh well... Back to my studies now...

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi

Monday, July 19, 2004

~ Love Messages... ~ 7:20:00 pm

Got an email from a friend on love messages... Loved it so much that I decided to post it here and share it with everyone else who's reading my blog... Enjoy!

Love Message 1

Love Message 2

Love Message 3

Love Message 4

Love Message 5

Love Message 6

Love Message 7

Love Message 8

Love Message 9

Love Message 10

Love Message 11

PS. Some of the lettering may look blur due to the size and fonts of the pic... In whichever way, hope you'll like it!

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi

Thursday, July 15, 2004

~ Swimming Lesson... ~ 7:59:00 pm

Sigh... Feeling so physically drained... Even as I'm writing this blog, I'm feeling so tired and lethargic... Well, maybe I'm just trying too hard... Trying too hard to prove my friends wrong... Trying too hard not to let them make fun of me just cuz I can't swim... Yes, I can't swim... Well, it wasn't really a big issue for me that I can't swim but ever since I got to poly, everyone was like "You can't swim?" those sorts of thing... It then got stuck to me that not knowing to swim was such a big issue... But yeah, I won't deny that knowing how to swim is a useful tool... Just that, haiyoh, I don't like to be ridiculed over such a minor thing... So yeah, I went to the swimming pool today with Flora after SO many years of not stepping into one...

Reached the school pool complex at about 2pm... It did freaked me out a little bit that there were quite a lot of people at the deep pool... Ended up sitting at the benches for a few minutes with Flora, chit-chatting about stuffs (I realise that I haven't REALLY talked to her face-to-face about what we think and what we're facing for quite a period of time... So we really had a good heart-to-heart talk just now... Which of course includes gossipping... Heh...) Finally got into the pool where Flora was teaching me how to use my legs and kick in the water... Was quite tough and tiring... Basically she was teaching me the 'Frog Style' or what I would rather call 'Breaststroke' technique...Haha... Couldn't coordinate my leg movements with my hands...

Got tired so we moved to the medium pool, followed by the baby pool where we had a good chat, moved back to the medium pool, sat on the 'beach' chair, back to the benches and finally, again into the deep pool... Haha... Complicated eh...

Everything ended at about 5... Got into the shower room and stuff... And yeah, I can see a two-colour tone on my skin... But I'm gonna keep trying till I can swim and have a firm butt!! Haha...

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

~ 'PS, I Love You' ~ 7:05:00 pm

Finding someone you love and who loves you back is a wonderful, wonderful feeling. But finding a true soul mate is an even better feeling. A soul mate is someone who understands you like no other, loves you like no other, will be there for you for ever, no matter what. They say that nothing lasts for ever, but I am a firm believer in the fact that for some, love lives on even after they're gone.

This is an excerpt from the latest book that I've just read 'PS, I Love You' by Cecilia Ahern. Why I chose this part from the book was because I just found it really meaningful... Well, it's true that finding someone whom you love and loves you back is a great feeling... But yeah, finding someone who is able to understand you fully, knows what you are thinking makes it even more greater... But it's not easy for you to find your true soulmate... Seriously, I'm quite skeptic about finding your soulmate and all but hey! You'll never know till you yourself will experience such a thing... Guess that everyone is not as lucky as some people out there...

A little summary of the book:
Tells about the story of Holly, the lead female character, on losing her most beloved one to brain tumour... As she thought that she could never continue on living without Gerry, her significant other, he leaves a parcel for her which contains "The List"... The list, which is written for every single month of the year of his death, teaches Holly to live a life without having Gerry around, whom she is very dependent on while he was still alive... To her, it's a rule that she has to obey in order to get her life straight... With help from her dearest family and friends, she managed to hurdle the obstacle and be a braver and stronger person in years to come...

Well, all that I can say about this book is that it's a really very touching story... It did teach a little about love and friendship... Love between a man and a woman, love between a mother and her daughter, love between siblings, and love between friends... A definite recommended book for those who loves sweet and touching storyline... But don't fret if you shed a tear or two while reading this... Hee!!

PS. The real reason why I bought this book was because I was totally attracted to its cover (the book cover colour was baby blue - my fav!) & its design... Never expected the contents to be as good too! Hmm... A great buy!

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

~ What a start to a brand new week!! ~ 11:33:00 pm

Hmm... I really think this is not a lucky week for me... So many things have happened within a space of two days... Sigh... Well, some parts of this blog was actually supposed to be posted yesterday... But as I pressed the 'Publish Post' button, the whole thing just went POOF... Man, I had actually put my heart & soul into writing the blog... Haha... Oh well... Guess I have no choice but to rewrite the blog again...

Nobody would have guessed it but yeah... I fell on my way to school yesterday!! Sigh...
Where - at the overhead bridge steps near my house... Why - cuz I was chasing after the bus cuz I thought that I was going to be late for school... But in fact, I reached the Yio Chu Kang MRT bus stop SUPER early... Damn, shouldn't have chased for the bus... But I was lucky that I managed to escape with just a few scratches on my hands and a tiny wound on my left toe...

And yeah... This fall really reminded me of the fall that I had in school when I was in Year 1... The one that happened behind the curtains... FIONE!! All your fault... Haha... But then, it's one fall that I will never forget... Haha... For those who happen to read my blog and have no idea what is it all about, you can always ask me... Hehe...

Been having a toothache for the past 3 days... Although the pain has actually subsided quite a lot today... It was really very difficult for me to chew and Flora even told me that I'm gonna lose weight even more at this rate... Haha... Oh well... Some of my friends was like telling me that my wisdom tooth was growing... But seriously, I dunno cuz I've never experienced such a thing before...

Had a bad headache today... On my right side only... Sigh... What's wrong with me???

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi

Saturday, July 10, 2004

~ Not again.... Why must these animals suffer because of inhumane ppl? ~ 11:14:00 pm

The New Paper, Friday 9 July 2004

One kitten cut in half. Another's head slashed, leg cut off...

By Alvin Chiang

IN less than two weeks, a mother cat lost three of her four babies.

While one apparently died of natural causes, two were found dead with their bodies cut up.

A cat lover was shocked when she saw the dead kittens.

Miss E Q Shen, 31, found 'Mini' dead on Jun 24 and 'Snow White' on Jun 27.

What was left of their bodies was found near two empty adjacent wet market stalls in Block 33, Dover Road.

The third cat, 'Baby', had died earlier, at the same market.

The account manager had identified and named the strays after doing a head count of the cats in the neighbourhood.

Miss Shen, a member of the Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals (SPCA), said: 'Mini's body was cut in half. The lower half below her chest was missing and there were no internal organs left in the carcass.

'Only her front left paw was attached to the dead body.

'One of Snow White's legs was chopped off and her head was so badly cut I couldn't tell where it was.

'I dared not touch the body.'

The ground where the remains were found was dry, she said.

'There were blood stains but they were not found in a pool of blood.'

Three months ago, Miss Shen started the head count of cats in her neighbourhood.

She planned to get them sterilised.

This was how she got to know the mother cat and her kittens. Miss Shen said she checked on them almost every day.

'I was heartbroken when I saw them dead. I was very upset and didn't feel like talking to anyone after that.'

A week before Mini died, Miss Shen found Baby motionless. Baby's body was intact.

Together with a man in his 60s from the neighbourhood, Miss Shen buried Baby.

Miss Shen, who lives near the wet market, said they believed Baby died of natural causes.

It was the man, a retiree, who alerted Miss Shen to the deaths of Mini and Snow White.

Miss Shen did not want to identify the man because she said he went round the neighbourhood feeding stray cats every night, and had been scolded for it by some residents.

Miss Shen also made her rounds at night. That was how she got to know the man.

Madam Lim So Sing, 46, who sells dried foodstuff behind the empty stalls where the carcasses were found, said nothing like this had happened there before.

Madam Lim, a stall owner there for over 10 years, said: 'I didn't see the dead cats but I heard the cats were cut up very cleanly. The knife used must have been very sharp.'

Miss Shen called 999 on both occasions.

Police spokesman ASP Victor Keong said no-one had been arrested and police are investigating.

The SPCA said it was in touch with the police on the case.

Ms Deirdre Moss, SPCA's executive officer, said SPCA needed to wait for the police to finish their investigation to determine if the deaths of Mini and Snow White had been caused by abuse.

Ms Moss said: 'SPCA can't say if this was a case of abuse unless someone witnessed how the cats died.'

The mother and the remaining kitten is being taken care of by a member of the Cat Welfare Society.

Miss Shen said: 'I named the last kitten Lucky because it was the only one left alive.'

Under the Animals and Birds Act, a person found guilty of abusing animals can be jailed up to a year and fined up to $10,000.

Animal abusers: Mentally ill or a personality disorder

DR Ken Ung, a psychiatrist in private practice, said people who abuse animals could be mentally ill and may suffer from anti-social personality disorder.

This means they may not be able to feel for others, he said.

'They are masochistic and their anti-social streak is manifested in acts of severe cruelty to animals.'

Young boys in a group setting may also abuse animals to show off.

'Children who start out abusing animals may not develop the ability to feel remorse,' Dr Ung said.

'When they grow up, they may abuse people.'

Dr Francis Ngui, president of the Singapore Psychiatric Association, said it was not possible to know why anyone would be so cruel to the kittens unless he interviewed the person who did it.

Dr Ngui, a psychiatrist for 15 years, said: 'He could have killed for pleasure or he could be angry after a quarrel. But I can't say why he did it until I study his background and character.

'There could be many possible reasons.'

Mrs Cathy Strong, founder and president of The Animal Lovers League, was shocked when told of the kittens' deaths.

'I don't know why people abuse animals. They may be psychotic,' she said.

To encourage witnesses of animal abuse cases to come forward, the Cat Welfare Society offers a reward of $1,000 to anyone who gives information leading to the arrest of an animal abuser.

Ms Christina Eng, spokesman for the society, said the informant must make a police report and testify in court should there be a need.

No-one has yet been given the reward, since the society started the scheme in 2000.

Other inhumane treatment of animals

PENSIONER Suppiah G, 70, found a cat with four rubber bands tied tight around its neck at Marsiling estate market in May. The rubber bands had cut into the flesh and choked off blood circulation.

If Mr Suppiah had not removed the rubber bands, the cat would most likely have died as it could not eat due to the pain.

Mr Baxter Thong, 36, found the decomposing bodies of six kittens at Ayer Rajah Industrial Estate in June last year.

As the bodies had decomposed to the stage where maggots were eating their flesh, it was not possible for SPCA to do a post-mortem to find out how they died.

A small poodle was found abandoned and covered in faeces and infected sores in a lift at Geylang Bahru in December 2000.

Maggots were crawling on its body and bone could be seen through a raw, open wound on one of its legs.

Its front paw was missing.

The dog was put to sleep.

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

~ Lessons learnt from mental health module... ~ 9:37:00 pm

Had our first lesson on mental health today... Well, Mr Bernard Lian, our lecturer, spoke quite a few things to us about this module and the tough challenges that we might face when nursing these patients when we go out for attachment at IMH...

First thing he said was, the patients look normally just like you and me... But they are not crazy... I used to be biased before i joined nursing and called such people 'crazy'... But they're not... They are just mentally ill... Why? Nobody knows why... There's no hard facts to tell why a person has mental illness... It's quite a pitiful thing... Esp if their family members refuse to acknowledge them... But dun think that such thing will not happen to you... Can you predict what will happen in 5 years' time?

The second thing that which really knocked me hard on the head was... "What would you do if you had the most nasty, disgusting thing in your mouth? You would spit it out right? And what if you're holding something heavy and hot? Drop it... So why can't you get rid of all the jealously, hatred, bad emotions in yourself? You could be happy just like before..." Well, this isn't really what he exactly said but it was something close... But the main thing is the points... I know at times, I still live in the past... Hating myself for knowing such a person and make myself being deceived... But what's the point? What's the point of hating, being angry? Will it make any good use to me? NO!! It will not... Therefore, he said again that you should learn to let go, forgive but you can never forget... Which is so true... I'm trying to be as positive as I can be... I have forgived, I have let go but for one thing, I can never forget it no matter what...

I'm sure I'm going to learn more life lessons from this module... It's gonna teach me to be a better person, I hope...

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi

Monday, July 05, 2004

~ My First Day @ Sch as a 3rd Year Student.... Cool! Hehe... ~ 7:31:00 pm

Today was the start of a new chapter in my life... Well, sort of... Hehe... Today was the day when the batch of 02/03 stepped into the roles of being a senior... That's right!! All of us are already into our 3rd and final year... Wow!! Time flies really fast... I could still remember the first day when I first stepped into NYP, for an orientation for the freshies... Well, it wasn't THAT scary then cuz I had Flora with me... Today, I could see all the blur faces again, just like how I was 2 years ago...

Got up to a brand new start, even though Portugal lost to Greece 1-0 at the Euro 04 Finals... Man, how could that happened?... Anyway, met Fione earlier in school to buy the lecture notes... The queue was DAMN LOOOONNNNGGGGG... Luckily I got Priya to buy the books for me and Fione... But it was really an embarrassing moment when Abigail and Flora just cut the queue like that... Sheesh!

Went on to proceed to the clinical lab at Block K Level 4... How unlucky, we got Ms Tan Siew Hong who was our mentor, as our clinical skills lecturer... Oh well! Guess we have to bear with her for the next 12 weeks... But I could see that she was a good skills lecturer cuz she really showed us the procedure step-by-step... Just that she had her rules and regulations... But then again, which lecturer doesn't have his or her own set of rules? Hmm... Oh yeah! And we really saw her got really angry just now cuz the group proportion was imbalanced... So scary! Heh...

During the two hours break, I met up with my bestest guy friend from sec sch, Yangde, and we just chatted on our respective lives, sch, etc... It's really great getting to see him again... It's not with every guy that I can talk so freely with about my problems, etc... Even especially during the time was I was down and out, he was there for me... For that, I've really learnt to appreciate my friends more... Hee... Wanted to have lunch at the same time, but again, the queue was so DAMN LOOOONNNNGGGGG... In the end, even as the queue subsided, I was too lazy to queue and as a result, I didn't had my lunch...

After that, was followed by two hours of lecture... Same module but diff lecturer... Weird... Heh... A bit boring... Touched on topics of OT and neurology... Neurology seems more familiar cuz I've just been there... Hehe...

This time round, I must really buck up and can't really slack like before cuz the modules now are much heavier and tougher... I hope that I can go through my 3rd year with ease and graduate as a staff nurse... Wish me luck!! Hehe...

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi

Saturday, July 03, 2004

~ My Attachment at TTSH... It's finally OVER!!!! ~ 12:10:00 am

Finally, after 4 weeks, my VTP posting at TTSH has finally ended... I've been waiting for so long for this day to arrive... And now, it's finally HERE!! Hee... Well, what can I say? This is my first ever posting at TTSH after being sent to CGH from the start of my Year 1 in nursing... Being in TTSH has definitely brought some bittersweet memories to me, which I guess, I can never forget...

Ever heard of people getting lost in a hospital? Well, I'm a living example... Hehe... Wasn't totally my fault though... I was supposed to bring down a patient with the porter to the x-ray dept... But the staff nurse only told me last minute and by the time I reached the lift lobby, the porter has pushed the whole bed down on her own... I was like a lost soul looking for a place to go... Furthermore, it was after office hours and the whole of Basement 1 was like a ghost town! Luckily there were signboards around... If not, I would have been totally lost! And thanks for that, I even got a scolding from the porter... *Sigh*

As for the experience of working in the two wards, I felt more satisfied working in Ward 10D rather than Ward 8D... There were so many restrictions to what we could be in 8D but there was more freedom in what we could do in 10D... In 10D, I felt as though all the staffs are like "one big family" and it's really a very nice environment to work in... Seriously, I wouldn't mind coming back to that ward again... Even the NO allows the students to send patients down to learn new things...

Like the other time, I went to send this patient, Bed 119 of Ward 10D, to the NNI for an EMG (Electro Myography)... EMG is a procedure to check the nerves of the patients especially in a spinal injury... I was very lucky that the doctor who was doing the procedure was a very nice man and he even answered the questions which I asked... And the NO even asked to follow this patient down to RTC (Radiotherapy Centre) and see the place and what they do there...

But I dun understand why my last day is always so hectic or chaotic... Like today, there was only one AN around after 12 noon and most of the things had not been done by then... Hmm... But whatever it is, I'm glad that my attachment is over...

Special thanks to:

My NYP colleagues...
Florence, Priya, Xiaozhen, Wahidah, Candy, Richard & Soumya (Year 2)
Samira, Greg, Alene, Suting & Shuting (Year 1)

It's been a great, great pleasure getting to work with you guys... Although I didn't get to work closely with some of you, but it's great getting to know you... I hope that we will have more opportunities to work together... Provided that you wanna work with me, that is... Hee...

TTSH Staff...
SN Loida, SN Maheas, SN Josephine, AN Nadiyah, WA Chandra and to those in Ward 8D...
NO Yeong, NO Ivan, SN Zuraidah, SN Hasfizah, SN Liezel, SN Zhou, AN Minimol, AN Eng, SAN Norliah, SAN Sarimah, WA Mae and the rest in Ward 10D...

Thank you for teaching, guiding and sharing your experiences with me... I know that I can be blur at times but if not for your guidance, I wouldn't have made it this far with so much determination and confidence... Especially at Ward 10D... This is where I feel the most comfortable... Even though my marks are low, but it doesn't matter cuz I find that I have really learnt a lot as I was given the opportunity to... THANK YOU!!

My dearest patients & relatives
Thanks to all my patients and the relatives regardless of the fact whether they have irritated me or not but without you, I wouldn't be around either! You have made my attachment an eventful and fruitful one despite all the backaches and tiredness... Hee... And my cute "ah-mas" and aunties... I'm gonna miss you... Hehe...

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi

Thursday, July 01, 2004

~ Go PORTUGAL Go!!! (Euro 04 Semi-Final) ~ 8:50:00 pm

Wow!! I really can't believe that Portugal actually won against Holland in the semi-final match of Euro 2004... All along thought that Portugal would not reach the finals even though I'm rooting for them... But hey! Who would have thought that they would get this far... What's more, my favourite player, Cristiano Ronaldo of Portugal and Man Utd would score the opening goal against Holland...

One lesson to learn from Euro 04: Never underestimate the underdogs or the lower teams... Hee...

Ronaldo and Maniche, goalscorers for Portugal against Holland in Euro 04 semi-final...

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi